Drawn & Quartered | Dust | Eb & Flo | End of Oil | Fallen Moon | Hate
Lost Lovers | New Army | Sacrifice | Scapegoat | Souler Coaster
Sucker/Savior | The Horrors of Retail | The Sickness | Tragedy

 

Drawn & Quartered
When I met you
I wanted a friend
Not looking for romance
But to start again
You offered me comfort
I offered my home
You said that you loved me
And then you stayed too long

My heart’s been drawn and quartered
Dreams have seen the night
A twister on the water
Emotions bottled tight
Can’t hold
these feelings
Down
Can’t drown
These tears
Now.

When I loved you
I gave you my heart,
My body, my trust, and
You tore it apart
You took from the coffers
You claimed you did not
The lies made me crazy
And they happened a lot

My heart’s been drawn and quartered
Dreams have seen the night
A twister on the water
Emotions bottled tight
Can’t hold
these feelings
Down
Can’t drown
These tears
Now.

When I wed you
I was unaware
Looking for answers
But they weren't there
You promised me freedom
I wanted to relief
But I waited for six years
And now I don’t believe.

My heart’s been drawn and quartered
Dreams have seen the night
A twister on the water
Emotions bottled tight
Can’t hold
these feelings
Down
Can’t drown
These tears
Now.

When I left you
I was stripped bare
Looking for solace
And to be repaired
I sought out a counselor
You found another wife
I’m better without you
Because I’ve got my life.

My heart’s been drawn and quartered
Dreams have seen the night
A twister on the water
Emotions bottled tight
Can’t hold
these feelings
Down
Can’t drown
These tears
Now.
Can’t hold these feelings…
Now, I am here for me
to move on.

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Dust
I've said it too many times
to too many faces--
it always turned to dust
Your love made it a crime
to turn it on a dime
or turn it into mere lust
You don't need me to tell you
the things you must do
it's a matter of self-trust
The answers you have
make me so glad
and sad
for you will be missed

You do what you must
leave me in the dust
don't look back
don't look back
You will grow within time
neglect me, that's fine
you do what you must
Leave me holding the bag
man, it'll be such a drag
trying to replace you

Don't call me, don't write
don't keep me up at night
there's no use, there's no use
The things we won't do
make me so blue
memories fade to dust
As the years roll on
I'll be singing this song
trying to forget you.

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Eb & Flo
La la (slow)

Do you feel me?
I am not a clown
But I’m such a fool
I am not alone, no

I can’t let you go
I am such a fan
I am not afraid
There’s no debate

La La (moderate)

I will challenge you to
Think outside your world
I demand you do
Or fall behind

But I can only do
So much to bring you
Up to speed
Before you bring me down

My conscience /continues to rise
My spine /tingles the signs
Something’s /crooked in my mind
My intension’s /been misaligned

Darlin’, if you believe
That we have a purpose here
Then don’t bother me with anything less
And if you believe in anything meaningful
Then let’s get to business creating what’s best

Two feet forward and /one yard back
This reunion’s had /a cardiac attack
To break stalemates and /strike out on one’s own
Will I strike out?/Will I strike gold?

I still love you but I need so much more
The tide is coming the ebb and flow of us
I’m afraid it’s time to count up the score

Darlin’, I don’t believe that we have a future here
I can’t be bothered with anything less
I must believe in something more meaningful
I gotta get busy creating what’s next

La La (fast)

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End of Oil
At the end of oil
In the end of time
When there's no more coal in the ground
We'll turn out the lights
The cars won't roll
The radios won't have sound
And we'll all bow down
To the stars above us
And the moon and sun, too
The wind will move us
But if we don't
Learn how
Do it now
To change our ways
Then we'll all
Fall down
Like a house
Of cards and be no more...

At the end of faith
In the end of man
When there's no more truth to be found
We'll deny our gods
Goodbye our souls
Give up our hands to the cause
And we'll all enshroud
Ourselves in the darkness
And the evil, too, will rule over us
Cuz if we don't
Learn how
Do it now
To right the wrongs
Then we'll all
Fall down
Like dominos
In a deadly game of doom...

(Instrumental)

At the end of gold
At the end of earth
When there's no more food to go 'round
With the war of worlds
Waged for space
No cash or cars will serve
To fill the hole
Like a drop of water
With the loss of seeds
That would be our fodder
But if we don't
Learn how
Do it now
To share the weatlh
Then we're all
Doomed to drown
In a flood
Of goods and be so poor...

Bridge:
Where are our heroes?/Where are our souls?
Where are our morals?/Why are we foes?
Where is the love now?/Where is the hope?
Where are our values?/Why are we so cold?

At the end of good
At the loss of mirth
When there's no more hope to be found
With the war of words
Waged for peace
No happiness can be served
To fill our needs
The way of compassion
But a flood of grief
Will be in the fashion
For if we don't
Teach love
Practice now
To change our ways
Then we're already done
And can go back
To the source
From which we came...

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Fallen Moon
With a swoon
we are called by the moon
and we soon
feel the swell of the room
While we move
balmy night breathes in tune
and we dance 'neath the glow of
Fallen moon

Ooh…Fallen moon
Being bright
Goddess light
Belly full

Ooh…Fallen moon
Beaming smile
Goddess love
Beautiful

When we fly
to the stars in the night
Lift me high
float like clouds, feel so light
With eyes locked
and my skirts whirling wide
And your breath
its caress by my side

Ooh…Fallen moon
Being bright
Goddess light
Belly full

Ooh…Fallen moon
Beaming smile
Goddess love
Beautiful

By my spine
where I ride like the tide
as I slide
with our sweat down your side
And we glide
'round the room spinning wild
See desire
burn like fire in our eyes

Ooh…Fallen moon
Being bright
Goddess light
Belly full

Ooh…Fallen moon
Beaming smile
Goddess love
Beautiful

Then you grasp
at the nape of my neck
As I clasp
at your waist, Honey, grip
And you arch
me back down, soft and quick
Thighs and hips
wanting more as we kiss

Ooh…Fallen moon
Being bright
Goddess light
Belly full

Ooh…Fallen moon
Beaming smile
Goddess love
Beautiful

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(As You Become What You) Hate

Married to addictions
No room for a wife
No space between your demons and life
This is not a living
But a shadow of a soul
You're trying to fill a big hole

To manage your feelings
You're twisting a knife
Wounding and bleeding inside
A tourniquet fix for a past you can't hide
With binding and bandaging lies

Chorus:
You say you wanna heal
You say you wanna change
But then give into the same game
While warring within you
You cut off yourself
As you become what you hate

You can pour in a liquid
You can suck on a smoke
You can swallow until you are numb
But 'til you're awake
It's like running a race
Like a rat, blind and dumb

Chorus:
You say you wanna heal
You say you wanna change
But then give into the same game
While warring within you
You cut off yourself
As you become what you hate

Bridge:
You're not allowed to hurt me now
You're not allowed to hurt me, no
You're not allowed to hurt me now
You're gonna change or watch me go

Now give us the truth
And then stick with it
Will you commit
Or give excuses again?
Before you can give the whole of yourself
You must be your whole self in the end

Chorus:
Don't say you wanna heal
Don't say you wanna change
And then give into the same game
While warring within you
You cut off yourself

As you become what you hate
As you become what you hate
As you become what you...
Hate.

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Lost Lovers
Such a pretty poison
What a lovely face
When you do your snake-charmin'
My sleeping being you'd shake awake

Happy evil angel
Seductive as a saint
Like Loki, you would lead me,
Like a lover, I would wait

I'm as innocent as Adam
And his woe-begotten mate
You're the taint that's come between us
But now I've smote the snake

For him, the hapless image
Of conscience gone astray
I've no words for the perversion
Of the fullness you'd deflate

A bouquet full of flowers:
Roses, apples, grapes
A Bacchanalian feast I'd bring
My heart upon a plate

Sweetly you would drink of me
Drain me of my face
Yours, a ruddy visage
Complete vampiric grace

For the taste of sacred liquid
I'd drink until I'm sate
For that wine in selfish sorrow
A perfect victim I would make

But leave me with my soul intact
Let not division be my fate
What have you need of spirit
When of body you may partake?

Sad you are as Satan
And wise beyond debate
Yet not worthy of my heart, my dear
Nor wanting of my faith

I may see you in the morning
Or in a dream beneath the waves
Until our next encounter dear
This is how we shall remain:

Love and blessings on your dream-bed, dear
Love and blessings
on
my
grave.

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New Army
I.
I gave in
I gave up
Yes, I guess that my best
wasn’t good enough

Memory
it complains
that I failed to explain
greater consciousness

The plan of man
is not the path
and it’s meaningless

Yeah, the pain
it remains
As a blemish to pick at and poke again…

II.
Did you dig
deep enough
in my fragile skin
for your greedy whims?

Did you find
all the oil
and the gas and the coal
you were looking for?

Did you bleed
all those trees,
the ice, and this temperate atmosphere?

Paradise incomplete
before all you humans demanding more…

III.
Goddamn race
a disgrace
what you’ve done to your home
it was not your place

And the bed
that you’ve made
can never be cleansed of your mortal stains

Say goodbye
to your soul
all the gold cannot fill up your empty hole

When the world is no more
will you cry for your sins like a selfish whore?

CHORUS:

Short-sighted
Small-minded
And blinded
Reminds us that
Karma will get you

The poisons you posit
Will cough up and vomit
Destruction that you do

Your body, your family
Your future and sadly
She will not spare you

This is your last warning
A prayer for morning
In which you prepare to

DIE
DIE
DIE

Or CHANGE

Your mind and your motto
Get out of the gutter
And tend to your mother

The flood and the fires
Wrought from wrong desires
The Earth is calling

YOU

She’s calling to you
She’s coming for you
What will you do?
What will you choose?
It is not a choice
There is no choice
This is your new army and you have been drafted…

Here’s your last
CHANCE….

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Sacrifice
For you I made the sacrifice,
gave away each body part-
on a platter, served up my heart.
More than stretched out on a sleeve, it was
diced in cubes for you to eat.

And as you ate, my blood you drank
My marrow you sucked as if for sweets
My soul you used to wipe your lips
And with my bones you picked your teeth.

But no thanks were made for this great feast;
no praises to the gods for my defeat.
You sucked the very life from me,
I think you said of necessity.

Then you left the table suddenly-
What? No longer hungry?
You sought another banquet,
another Venus, another feast.

But no thanks were made for this great feast;
no praises to the gods for my defeat.
You sucked the very life from me,
I think you said of necessity.

Thus left strewn on the table cloth,
I made another sacrifice-
Gathered up each body part
(broken bits and cut up heart)

cauterized the wounds with tears,
forgave myself for being naïve,
chaulked it up to experience,
and thanked the gods
for my release.

You sucked the very life from me,
I think you said of necessity.
In truth, I think you were starving to be
As free and as bodiless as me.

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Scapegoat
Make me your toxic dumping ground
A wasteland of all your fears,
Pour your tragic face on me,
Drain from me your hapless tears

A vessel of amnesia
An urn of deadened lies,
A box of broken promises
Built by trusting eyes

Make me your willing pin cushion,
Your voodoo doll of delight,
Bounce me on your knee in day
And tie me up at night.

A scratching post for wanton claws,
A sponge for well-springs deep,
A crutch for all your shattered dreams—
I reject these while I sleep

Oh when will take your fears and rage,
Your tragic face, your well-spring tears?
When will you heed that angry flame,
Extinguish lies and your schizophrenic ways?

Sad and silly-sweet little man,
Pollute my flowerbed no more,
Neutralize your hazardous bile,
Or keep the toxics inside your doors.

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Souler Coaster
I will share with you my wisdom
I will give you my opinions
I will show you my experience

I will tell you all I know
And should you take what works and go
Discarding all that doesn’t fit your universe

All that matters is that you are at peace with your decisions
It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks

After that, you’ll have to live, with yourself

And I’ll expect you’ll
Be true to
Yourself, not me

As I respect you
You do what you
Feel must be

But I suspect you
Will see something real
To keep
As I connect true
To you
Please remember me

I will hear your criticisms
I will try on your opinions
I will listen to the words you have to say

I will learn what you can teach
And I will wear what works for me
Discarding what’s uncomfortable and out of place

All that matters is that I am at peace with my decisions
It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks
After that, I’ll have to live, with myself

And I expect
To be true to
Myself, not you
As you respect me
I’ll do what I feel
Must be

But I suspect I will see
Something real to keep
As you connect true to me
I will dance with you

We’ll engage in these discussions
No defensive repercussions
Non-reactive compassionate well-being

I won’t be Judge/You won’t be victim
Do what thou wilt an ye harm none will be law
Love is the law, love under will

All that matters is that we are at peace with our decisions
It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks

After that, we'll have to live, with ourselves

And we’ll expect
To be true to
Ourselves
Not them
As we respect those
Who do what they feel must be
And hope that they, too
Will see possibilities
As we connect true
To friends on whom
We wish peace.

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Sucker/Savior
Inextricably tied...
Indelibly in my art...
Don't call me a romantic...
Tough shit if you don't like it...

Tell me when you want me
But not when you're needy
I'll be dating to distraction
With other human beings

Fuck me when you're happy
Commit to absolutely nothing
Detachment can be healthy
But it's a recurring dream

I've no choice but to want you
Your experiments exclude me
How can I be happy
Knowing you're not mine?

I know that you're not ready
I think I must be crazy
I'd be foolish to be waiting
So I'll just move along

For anything I was willing
To your needs fulfilling
Somehow my every effort
Fell insufficiently

I'm a sucker, I'm your savior
Mystified by your behavior
Did you think you'd get away with
Tearing me apart?

You have my heart; I want it back now
Since you said I'm not your flavor
You were my friendly neighbor
Now, a dagger for my heart

You know you don't deserve me
I gave more than I should
I am stunned by the reversal
of who I thought I knew you were

Now my world is turned upside down
All I thought was good is underground
Your words and letters in a shallow grave
I will bury it all and you...

Curse me if you want to
Whatever to get through
Deny feelings if you must, too
The universe knows truth

Your memory still haunts me
When I think that I'm not thinking
The fissure on my soul still
sings sad flower songs

This should be oh so thrilling
As we deal by days in time
Counting down 'til nothing matters
And I'll wonder was it a lie?

I'm a sucker, I'm your savior...
You have my heart; I want it back now...
Fuck me when you're happy...
You know you don't deserve me...
Curse me if you want to...
Tough shit if you don't like it!

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The Horrors of Retail
Why do they ask the same things everyday?
Why can't they read signs or think, anyway?
Why do they talk about things so inane?
Why won't they all just go the fuck away?

Why should I care if it's your son's birthday?
Why should I help when you always complain?
I don't wanna talk weather or be your friend today
I try to ignore you but you're always in my face

You're rude and obnoxious
And now I'm the same
You hang at the counter
And stand in my way
And for this abuse I earn very low pay
I'm bored and annoyed and you are to blame

Why, why, why do I stay?
I can see why Clint Eastwood would say "make my day"
Why a postman would go completely insane
I want to make you suffer, make you feel my pain

I wish for deep sleep to take me away
Dreaming of things I could do with my day
They don't include cleaning up after the fray
Or trapped at a desk while on strangers I wait

I'm not really here though you look my way
You-with the cell phone-get out of this place!
I can't breathe, I can't think, and I need some space
You want my attention but my name's not "hey"!

No, I don't want to smile
Please don't ask me what's wrong
I'm waiting out hours while writing this song
I'm not entertained by your life's goings-on

Except to make fun of you
*sigh* are you still here?
I'm reading a book and you're not in the plot
Please just buy your damn things and then move along

You're so amused with everything you do
You're so clever and absolutely cute
You're so original I could just puke,
You're so interesting, why can't I be you?

My attitude's bad and I don't give a shit
I roll my eyes back and flip you the bird
You're stupid and loud and your white trash kids, too
I'm sure you'll be back and I'll see you soon

Why, why, why do I stay?
Day after day it's always the same
Pretending it's fine when it's such a drain
I ask you please god why is retail so lame?

Until tomorrow I'll survive, so I pray
And if I don't god put me out of my shame
Why why why why why why why do I stay?
Why why why why why is retail so lame?

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The Sickness
I'm an accessory to your life
A bauble, a trinket on a line
A crowbar in jail couldn't pry your life
Work comes first, last, all day and... all night

I'm not a priority
You have no time for me
I can get anyone
You just watch me

A mistress of casualty
Reporting for duty to
A captain of industry
Pulling heart strings

I got sick of the sickness forever
Pencil me in whenever, whatever!
I put passion in my work and pleasure
Ripped down the walls and toppled the figures

I get the picture and
See I'm not it
Love's in the kitchen and
Doin' the dishes

My heart's on the floor
Beatin' up by the dog,
While Sex in the hallway's gettin' it on

I'm not cooking this meal for nothin'
I'm not even cleaning the oven
The desk is warm while the bed's getting frigid
And I'm wanting more than you can give me

Tell me when you're hot for me
Tear up my security
I can go anytime
You can't stop me/ You can't stop me

A lonely weak automaton
Spare no extra thought on me
I'm programmed for tragedy
By your absence

I get sick of the waiting for never
Your commitments change like the weather
You're good at using feelings as weapons
Pull back the trigger and let the bird sing,
let the bird fling, let the bird flee, let the bird free

You're an island unto yourself
Hell's a major compromise
I'm resigned to an unknown life
Nothing will change, I've realized

Set me out on the curb
Toss me when you're done with me
Pick me up and bring me back
like some laundry

I don't want to compete
with your projects oh so neat
I can do anything, you wait and see

I got sick of the sickness forever
Pencil me in whenever, whatever!
Digging out of delusions is fortune
But being alone with a lover is torture

I acknowledge this isn't forever
They'll be others whenever, whatever!
But life in between the future and present
Makes me feel so anxious and severed

I'm aware of my place in the food chain
I know next time it won't be the same game
You're good at knowing all things and nothing
Pull back the curtain and let the bird sing,
let the bird fling, let the bird flee, let the bird free!

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Tragedy
When the source of your comfort’s the cause of your pain
When your great expectations leave you nearly drained
It’s a wonder you live long enough to complain
It’s hard to believe that you want it that way

Tragedy is all I see, now
Lifelong dreams are crushing me, how
Can I go on another year?

It’s unbelievable
What you put me through
How I stood by you
I was always true

With your problems all over
I longer of use
How quickly you’d leave me
How soon I was moot

It’s not fair, it’s not friendly
It’s selfish & mean
‘Cause you’re scared & unhealthy,
And cannot see clear
I don’t trust your reactions,
Your words or you deeds
Just recall I was happy
It was you brought my grief

Tragedy is all I see, now
Lifelong dreams are crushing me, how
Can I go on another year?

No matter the love and
No matter the gain
You would leave for afflictions
You’d choose to play games

Go away, read your feelings
Come back when you’re clean
Or to hell, take your anger,
Oh, please let me be…

Don’t change your allegiance
One day to the next
Take your time, don’t return
Perhaps that is the best
I won’t meet my replacement
I pray you were gone
Someday I pray never to
rewrite this song…

Tragedy is all I see, now
Lifelong dreams are crushing me, how
Can I go on another

Day?

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All lyrics © Lauri A. Murphy 1990-2008